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If hapinness is a choice, an atittude, how come is so many people unhappy in this world?....I would say no one chooses to be unhappy......right?????

Okay so guys, no body left any comments for my previous post, fine.

I'm quite surprise that I'm actually looking forward to seeing a guy at my art school lately. I still don't know him -yet. I havn't got a chance to talk to him, and I don't know if I will be able to.Unless he coaches me for art, otherwise, there's no chance to talk to him- I think. Okay I know I should stop falling in love with instructors...like how previously I fell in love with my yoga instructor. But seriously, I didn't expect that I would meet somebody @� this art studio.�

Okay not that I'm falling in love, I'm just having a crush. Yup, I'm FINALLY able to actually feel my heart ticking again these days!! (if u know abt me ,u would know how depress i had been for the last 1 year, so i'm definitely improving now)

I can't believe I'm actually looking forward to art class just to see him !! OMG !!

The thought of seeing him is so exciting.

Okay I must say, he's really short - much shorter than I am. And he's got such super long hair, such super crazy�braids/curls-�so cool! I've never seen a guy who could pull of this look so well! That is why I am utterly surprise that I could actually develop a crush on this guy, and it's only been like 3 lessons??

Artsy guy is really quite a pretty boy. I caught his looks on lesson 2 and discovered he had such translucent, delicate fair skin, it was almost impossible ! The gaze in his eyes was mesmerizing. When he's serious (like when he's walking around and looking at people's work), he's so attractive ! I like him, just wished he was TALLER.

I dun know, but I feel like he knows my presence and I caught his attention on lesson 1 already. I dun know,�I just have this feeling. It was as if I could feel his eyes was already on me the very 1st time he saw me. It's strange. And lesson 2, I could vividly remember him sitting near me as he watched the rest of us attend the art lesson (he was just helping out that evening).

What do guys really think of having taller gf? Okay, not like I care if I really have a shorter bf...he's so beautiful, he really is.

Just watched Food,INC and it was really good and hard to watch....makes me want to not eat meat anymore I did it for seven years before not eating red meat or pork maybe that will be my new years resolution but do it full force this time!

Bottled up inside

are the words I never said.

the feelings that I hide,

the lines you never read.

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You can see it in my eyes,

read it on my face.

Trapped inside are lies

of the past I can't replace.

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With memories that linger-

won't seem to go away.

Why can't I be happier?

today's a brand new day.

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Yesterday's are over

even though the hurtings not.

Nothing lasts forever,

I must cherish what i've got.

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I was very social this weekend and wore a dress on friday at the APA photo night and saturday night for Rose's party.....was pretty fun and was pretty proud of myself at Rose's holiday party chatting it up with perople I just met I promise I wasn't too awkward even gave one of the guys my card.....watch out!� I can not tell you how much my feet hurt though hahaha! but was a good time and today was very domestic shopping and cleaning and eating and wrapping presents!!� Oh the joys of christmas!!

haysh!!!!!

he just has the worst timings!!! ever!

i mean why now that i have my final exams!

plus, i don't need to know that he's voluntarily�going back to the philippines ryt WHEN my brother and i aren't there..

i don't want to know anything about him anymore...

really! what is he going to there?? what's his reason that he has to go there?? huh?? now that my brother and i aren't there. what's more important than his kids???? he never went there when we were there, why is he going now????? what? to gt drunk and wasted with his friends??? maybe! that's all he does anyways.

i'm tired of him and his reasons.

he never even said sorry without being under the influence of alcohol...

life...

it's ok, i have my new dad here, and his 100 times better than that father of mine.... I KNOW, i shouldn't compare, but still.....

NOW I KNOW.... IT WAS JUST BECAUSE IT WAS HIS BIRTHDAY. GOOD FOR HIM.